27 March, 2009

{while I'm waiting}

Last week I was cleaning a space in our bedroom that easily collects clutter when this song While I'm waiting by John Waller came on. The words stopped me in my tracks...they were words my heart so desperately needed to hear. I knew the song was in the move Fireproof, but I heard it with fresh ears that afternoon in my bedroom. I'll post the lyrics at the end if you're interested in knowing them...it's also the first song playing on my playlist.

You see, I feel like I've been waiting for God to move...spiritually and physically...for a long time. And I'll tell ya, I'm getting tired of waiting. There is not a patient bone in my body. One of the things I realized after hearing this song was that God knows I'm not a patient person. He made me this way for goodness sake. He must be trying to teach me something during this season of waiting. Being the patient person that I am{not}, I have a tendency to think that I can "figure out" what God has planned for me...I like to speculate what God's going to do next....as if I could. But God's way are so much bigger than my own. Why can I not just realize that and go with it? Apparently, I'm kinda dumb!

Anyway, I've just finished doing an amazing Beth Moore study on Esther. I blogged a little bit about the study here. And in {in a funk} I blogged about a desire I have longed for for a long time. There was one video session where Beth talked about the importance of knowing #1-when it's time, #2-when it's time to wait, #3-when it's time to wait for someone elses time and #4-when the meantime is God-time. There were several points she touched on that totally spoke to my waiting heart. One thing she said was "Never in our wait is God inactive"....read that again and let it sink into your heart. I have felt like God is very inactive right now, but I was reminded that even though I am not feeling Him, He's still there, working on my behalf. Another comment Beth made was "Our strength will be depleted when we wait on the event, person, or thing instead of waiting upon the Lord." I have been so guilty of waiting to move instead of waiting for God to reveal Himself. He has a much better plan than I could ever come up with for myself and my family.

I want His will and if that means that I have to wait, then I'm gonna wait. There's so much I'm learning and being reminded of in the "wait" too. I'm being reminded of the awesome things God has done for me. He has protected my family countless time. He has rescued me from myself more times than I can remember. I'm learning that I really don't have any control whatsoever over my circumstances. I'm learning that if I claim to love God then I can't straddle the fence...I've got to live every single aspect of my life for Him. I can't stay holed up in my safe circle of Christian friends and family. I've got to be passionate about my relationship with Christ and share Him with others. I've got to serve Him while I'm waiting. I've got to worship while I'm waiting.

Well, I've rambled enough for today. If you find yourself in a season of waiting, meditate on the words to this song and apply them to your unique set of circumstances. God has an awesome destiny for you...will you wait for God to reveal Himself to you and bless your socks off? I'm praying you'll be patient.

While I'm Waiting...by John Waller
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
and I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead,
bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience


While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait


I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait


I will move ahead,
bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience


While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I will move ahead,
bold and confident
I'll be taking every step in obedience


While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint

I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

I will worship while I'm waiting

4 comments:

Nicole said...

You are so sweet, thankyou for your sweet comment on my blog. I hope you find some cute retro stuff for your ladies night. Love the words to that song! Thanks for the prayers, we are doing well. I'm actually expecting #4 so I have been a little under the weather, so thankyou!

Miss(es) Canadian Pie said...

I appreciated the words of this post today. While there are some areas of my life that I'm a little impatiant for (baby fever anyone?), I'm generally pretty patient. But I gathered so much especially from the Beth Moore quotes. Wow. I see that she may do the Esther series on her blog this summer. I hope she does. These words of yours also really struck me:

"I'm learning that if I claim to love God then I can't straddle the fence...I've got to live every single aspect of my life for Him. I can't stay holed up in my safe circle of Christian friends and family. I've got to be passionate about my relationship with Christ and share Him with others. I've got to serve Him while I'm waiting. I've got to worship while I'm waiting."

Living every single aspect of my life for him. Wow do I ever need to tighten up so many areas. To live my life fully for him. In every area. Really hit me. Thanks girl.

I will be praying for you in your waiting.

Cindy Lou said...

Dear Sweet Tonya, your words moved me to tears this morning ... tears of joy for the work God is doing in your life. Waiting is hard, but your attitude is amazing. God will not waste this "waiting" season. He will use it to bring glory to His name. Like Beth Moore said, you may not see it now, but years from now when you look back on this time, you will be AMAZED! Who doesn't love a starry night? To see the big dipper, the little dipper, the milky way? I love stars! In fact, they're in the sky right now ... at 10 o'clock in the morning. We just can't see them until it gets dark. Keep your eyes on the "stars" during your waiting time and not the "darkness". I love you and am a better person for knowing you. SMOOCH!

Lindsey said...

You never cease to amaze me TK! I love reading your blog...I bet you didn't know that I'm an advid reader? ;)